Topic
主題：Healing as Peace 療癒為和諧
Number 編號：Sat B4
Convenor 召集人：Jane Lewis
Participants (including Bumble Bees) 參與人員：Jane, Jessie, Evelyn, David, Enana, Huey Lien, Shufang, Anita, Pamela, Gail and Jim.
Insights 討論內容：
Jane was sharing a book of quotes with Jessie: Healing as it relates to Love, a book “A Return to Love.”
Ｊ分享一本有關治療與愛的書“回歸愛”
Jessie: Healing is how separation is overcome. 治療就是克服分離
Jane: Integration of chaos, conflict and confusion, when is healing happens, then energy comes up and then the energy flows and is somehow related to Love and not just a physical healing.
當混亂、衝突和困惑能整合時，就是療癒了，那時能量會提升、流動，愛也會發生，而不只是身體的治癒。
Enana: I was not well and could not breath or sleep at night and read a book from a Tibetian Lama who shared some methods to self healing. 12 Steps… 1. Go into yourself and feel a peaceful feeling inside your body. What part of your body is disturbing you and then let this go, let it become a black cloud that comes out of your body and then let it disappear and it just goes away. You will feel peaceful. I found doing these exercises made me fall asleep after the 3rd or 4th step, and my cold did not go away, but I felt better inside.
有一次我感冒時嚴重鼻塞，晚上無法入睡，所以拿起一本西藏密宗喇嘛寫的書“無盡的療癒”，按照其中的十二步驟來做，第一步驟是：深入自己的內在並找到平靜和諧，覺察身體的緊繃或不舒服，想像那些東西變成一朵黑雲、隨著呼吸吐納飄到空中、直至消失。雖然我只做到步驟三或四，感冒症狀也還在，卻已覺得好很多了。
David: Illness (physical or mental) can appear when I hold on to them. When I was young I learned this habit and if I let go it is very frightening, then it is hurting, & really needed it. Smoking .. started at 15 until 35 and finally stopped. Now with old habits returning restarted at 45 and it is even more painful to stop when I am under stress I fall back to the old habits and it is even harder to let go.
如果我抓住疾病不放，它就會出現。就像老習慣，那是我小時學會的，如果長大後叫我放棄我會很害怕。譬如我從十五歲開始抽煙，35歲時決定戒掉，但45歲時又開始，壓力大時我更難放棄
Enana: Yes for women it is losing weight. It is a cycle weight gain, weight loss, eat get fat, stop eat lose weight.
Jessie: from the book: Dropping illusions is a healing in itself. Within each of us there is a core, an essence, our true being. That is the place of God who is within us. Finding that essence is our return to God. It is the purpose of our lives and even our most painful experience can serve that purpose. P. 281.
David: I hold on to the illusion that I can’t, so I can’t.
Shufang: If I say I cannot swim, I tell someone else I can not swim, I start to believe I can’t swim, so I can’t swim.
Huey Lien: Healing includes mind and body. As a child my parent’s marriage was not good and I was not happy twice a year from Jr. Hi to college, almost 10 years. Serious stomach disorder twice a year. When I moved away to Puli, a small town, even though my parents died, I would hold my anger inside my body, may be to help my parent’s marriage. So I would be sick.
Then, I went to my brother’s house for Chinese New Year and I burst out from my mouth: I am the way I am and not your expectation. This brought my mind peace and harmony with my mind and body. Immediately when I said this, I felt my body at peace and when my mind is at peace, then immediately my body responds and connects.
David: Holding on to something creates the illness. Like a story about a man who took a walk and found a beautiful stone. It brought him much pleasure just holding and looking at the beautiful stone. Every time he went for a walk, he collected another stone. This made him feel good putting the stones together. Soon he had collected so many stones that he could not hold them in his pocket, so he placed them on a chain and others could see the beauty of the stones. One day, he was in a boat and he fell into the water. He was sinking down to the bottom and struggled to get to the top. Every time he would get a certain distance from the top of the water and he would be pulled back down. He finally realized that he had to release the beautiful collections of stones or he would drown. So the usefulness of the stones had to be let go so he could float to the top of the water. There is not judgement in this story. Either he lets go of the stones, or he does not.
Shufang: I had a session with Jane. I could not cry for a very long time. I had the session and I cried, but before the session I could not speak with my father. After that session I could say to him very naturally, “You have done your job, it is time.” Accepting myself created peace and the words come out naturally. This does not mean I am not angry, or struggling, but I can say what I want to say. Then I can get along with myself better and I can get along with my father better.
Jessie: I hold on to hurt in my heart. I have wounds I hold on to in my heart. I discovered that I struggle with my mind and my heart. Now growth with different direction I can face the hurt and let it go.
Jane: Healing is a transformation of energy. Heart, when I work with people I find that the heart gets guarded. Just feel it. When the energy is stopped, and then when it moves. When I don’t feel the energy of the heart, the feeling, then I get stuck. Like teacups… we went and had tea and selected a teacup that matched our stories. Whatever comes is whatever happens. Not resisting my father-in-law is dying now. I just accept it.
David: I had never seen the ocean. I am from Kansas, I had never seen the ocean before. I am a good swimmer, but when I went to the ocean I was so afraid of the ocean I could not go in the water. So a friend showed me, see I can stand here and the wave will go through me, and not knock me down. The wave will go through me. I saw this and was still afraid, but I went into the water and the water lifted me up and then went through me and my whole body was relaxed after that, letting go so that I have energy to do other things. Being so afraid held the energy. I realized I made the choice to hold the fear, and it is difficult, but I can make a choice. I was sure the wave would knock me over, so afraid, but I let I go through me, it lifted me up and set me down.
Gail: I read a book about Monkeys and Dragons recently. It was about a medical nurse who saw people get sick and die, sick and die, sick and die until her daughter had a viral cancer. So they went to alternative healing methods finally approved in San Antonio. Anyway, a few things she said was… if your family is supposed to have cancer and you are prone to cancer, then you believe you will get cancer, so you will. She said, ”Don’t own your disease. “Don’t deny what is there, but don’t own it.”
Jane: yes, people who say “my cancer” instead of the cancer, own the cancer and groups of people telling each other about the story deepens their pain.
Jane: Center for Survivors of Torture. Tell me about the torture… oh, how terrible, legally one must prove they are tortured in order to be accepted as a citzen of the United States fleeing another country. Well, actually we all have our trauma. My question is “How has this made your stronger? What was the gift that this torture has given you now?” And being in groups just reinforces being victims, poor me story, I want one on one with clients and an interpreter.
David: There is a difference between being tortured and never speaking of the torture too though. When I was a child I felt tortured. I never told anyone. So I went to a program where I spent a long time writing about my story, they would come in and say, did you get everything that caused you pain, don’t hold anything back. Then we would partner with someone else and tell our story and retell our story and retell our story until we were laughing about it. The point is to give objectivity to our story so that I can be free of the story. Often I hold on to the story and am waiting to retell my sad story, I was hooked on it.
Gail: Appreciative Inquiry starts with the positive base first with great stories of how wonderful the place is to be and work. It is very energetic – all the crap is still there, but it changes the way people expect to talk about themselves and their organization. Like the earthquake people, they are not having fun, they still live in temporary housing, tea prices are down, but they had great displays at this conference of what they are doing. 40 older residences with housing self care project, new businesses starting and getting help from people. However, open space is a place for healing and peace.
David: Did not print all good news because it will take up too much space. Too many good stories. I find when I have good food, plenty of rest and exercise I am so energetic I do not know what to do with that energy. I can not maintain it for very long. I soon am back to bad habits.
Gail: We do not know how to work in a noncompetitive environment. If no competition, no productivity. Why is that? German company in India, “We are #1 in country, so we don’t have to worry, oh yeah, you have 3,000 competitors. Oh, so paid more attention to clients, vendors, labor unions, everyone because they do have to be positive.
David: Don’t climb a tree to look for a fish.
Jane: “Excess of energy” I work with energy in healing. Frightening – what to do with all this energy.
Gail: We treat people with drugs these days, like hyperactivity, “Better living with chemistry.”
Enana: We have trained ourselves to take medicine. Medicine hurts our brain through side effects. However since psychologists treat mental illness with drugs, we believe we are helped by chemicals.
David: I have a friend who is bipolar and he told all his patients not to use drugs. Then he got drepressed and lost his wife and could not get out of bed for a year. Then his friend prescribed a drug and after six weeks he was back on his feet. So not all drugs are back.
Gail: Yes, some drugs have saved many lives.
Evelyn: I discovered while Larry was taking his blood pressure that I had high blood pressure. So I went and got medicine, then since I had a cold for two weeks and kept denying that I was sick, I developed asthmatic bronchitis because I have had asthma before and did not want to take the medicine. So I was really stressed out. I could not sleep at night, I was having communication problems with my daughter and these were the real issues. I am finally taking medication and my health is improving, but the real point is to deal with the real stress. I am holding on to the stress and illness instead of facing it. Why because I am a stoically.